STEPHIE'S BEADS AND BAUBLES

I wrote my post on creativity in April. It is now mid July and I am no closer to figuring out what in the world I want to do with myself.

I look around me at all the wonderful things in my studio. All the things I could do, and all the things I can create and I feel completely lost. I just cannot seem to get my creative mojo back. Currently I am working on old projects for others I never finished. Cleaning up some of my bead trays and putting stuff away. I need to clean off my work table as well. I have never been one of those creative people who can create in chaos. This has what has transpired over the last couple of months, after I got it all cleaned off.

We just found out a couple of weeks ago, the two grandkids we have been baby sitting full time for about a year and a half full time, are going to be going to school this year. The six year old, almost 7 year old was being home schooled by me and I was gearing up to start really working with her four year old brother. Our grandaughter really likes the idea of going to school and making friends and so our daughter told her that is what we will do and put her brother in the pre k at the same school.

We may or may not be driving them to school depending on what is going on with their moms job and hours. But even if we drive and pick up, we will have about 7 1/2 hours a day Monday through Thursday to ourselves between drop off and pick up, and starting the end of August, Fridays off . Right now we have half day on Fridays, so the first week or two of school, might have to drop them off, but we will not have to pick up on Fridays.

My husband retired on June 1 and we have been adjusting to a wonderful new normal. It is so amazing having him home every day. We are still trying to figure out our dat to day life and what we want to do with our time. He is the one that will be taking the kids to and from school as I do not have my car, our daughter is driving it indefinately, and I do not drive the SUV as I have legal blindness in my right eye and am not comfortable driving that big car.

So, I will have about 8 hours a day to do whatever I want. This will be a game changer. We will have them for school breaks of course, but our daughter is working hard to get hired by the school district and if she does, that will change it all for the best. For her, the kids, and of course for us as well.

So, I sit here right now, with most of a Sunday ahead of me and no clue what I am going to do with my day.

I am determined to start working on some projects, just making myself do some creative work, to get myself back into the swing of it. I need to work on my channel again, after months of now resolved computer and camera issues, I am now not even in the mood to do a video.It has been so long and I lost my way there as well.

I have to figure this out. I will not allow myself to sit around doing nothing every day. That is not who I am . I will find my passion for creating again, it is just a hard thing to deal with when it goes away.

I will start by continuing to clean and organize my studio and continute to go through all my supplies to get inspired again.